What tha hell is goin' on herre? I'm startin' to get pissed off with my blogger....Dunno how to personalize it...damn.... and now i can't see my recent post....Argh!!!!

18 'Til I Die - Bryan Adams: I wanna be young for the rest of my life/never said no/tried anything twice/til the angels come/and asked me to fly/gonna be 18 til i die/18 til i die!....18 til i die/gonna be 18 til i die/it sure feels good to be alive/someday i'll be 18 goin' on 55/ 18 til i die...

Okay...it has been a freakin' while since I wrote sumthin' here! Now I'm tooh eager to write stuff here....hahah.

This has been my song for the past weeks, since I downloaded it from Kazaa...I just love it....SINCE I'M TURNING 20 EXACTLY ONE MONTH FROM NOW!!! Dangg!!! Damn it! I'll be out of the "teen" bracket! I dunno why the hell is it much of a big deal for me! Can I say TwEn-TEEN?! HaHaH. Well I just feel so old man....aside frum the fact that i'll be soon graduating from college (October) ...Everything's just tooh fast...hahah...and I'll be having my practicum on June...Shettt....I just wish I'll get accepted in one of the greatest hotels here in manila...*sigh*
I used to be optimistic with what's gonna be ahead of me once I step out of my ever so loving college...I had this vision that I'm gonna be alright and I'm gonna be achieving all my goals no matter what...but now I'm in quandary....I'm starting to feel weak...and it's all sinking in...Lotsa questions on mah head...What's ahead of me? Will I be able to deal with all the shit the would come mah way? It's not that easy out there is it?....................Damn, I feel so old...I just want to be a freshmen again...

On the lighter side ( I think!) A lot of things had happened....My fellas and I won at the Destination Marketing Competition...First Place! Hahah! It was great! Finally, medals we've wanted all along! Hahah! But we lost at the Chocolate Praline Competition...I hate it...=( But it's okie... *winks*

Don't you just hate it when you weren't able to say ALL the things to want to say to someone? Especially to a person who had ruined your life in the past? Hahah.... Well I never thought that certain thing would happen to me. The most awful person in the world ( i haven't found the perfect word yet to describe the person, if she really can be called a person with what she has done to me) had approached me to tell me that she's sorry... Actually that happened monthssss ago, but everytime I see her in school, I just remember that confrontation thing.... I wasn't a ble to say all the things that I said, but surely I was able to slap her with what I had said, I just think it wasn't enough. You may think I'm an absolute bitch, but you gotta know what she did to me in the past... two words: ChArAcTeR AssAssInAtIoN. Think of the worst, and that's what she has done to me... I used to be weak then, I couldn't fight...But now, I wouldn't let anyone do sumthin' that terrible to me. And that's what I want to tell her...come my way again and you'll be sorry. Terribly sorry... and I mean it. I don't want to believe this person anymore since she had apologized in the past and did me wrong after that, and now she's apologizing again...sorry my ass bitch.....
Okay...you may think again that I'm goin' overboard...well hell yeah... (hahah!) This is my shoutout place so I'll say whatever I want to say..... BUT SERIOUSLY... I think that a person is good by nature. If the time comes that a person is betrayed and ruined... it's just natural for the person to establish hatred...and establish strength. Actually, I want to acknowledge this person because she made me the strong woman (dang WoMaN?! hahah.) I am now. But some people find it overpowering...well yooh gotta know me first...there's more of me...(where the hell is this heading to? hahah) Hahhh... whatever.. now I'm sorta relieved that I had let this out here.... But I'm sure enough that if I see this person again, everything will just go back in my head...ya know the things I want to tell her again... IN YOURRR FACE! (",)
I'm not a bad person....but if you do me wrong, well that's the time I'll make you feel sorry that you did sumthin' stupid to me...Isn't that just natural? I'm not a goody goody....hahah.
Enough of hatred! Let's be jolly! This long shoutout makes me want to take a swim..... it's getting hot in herre! Literally... summer's here! hahah! But I still have classes....and I love it! 'cause this is the last term of my life in college! Cant wait to go to Boracay!!! On October that is...heheh.... I dont think we wouldn't be able to go on a vacation this year since I'll be anticipating interview schedules from the hotels I applied to for my practicum.... But I'm still crossing my finger though.....I want to get a tan.....;P
This is tooh long....LoLz...'til the next shoutout....bye fella$...!. (",)