Surviving Heart's Day...Second Chances...

Open Heart

Yes, i survived Valentine's Day yesterday. As what Simon Cowell always says..."Whoopee.", with full of sarcasm...haha.
I have this routine everytime i wake up - grabbing my 2 phones, hoping for a couple of messages to read - but yesterday was quite different. The moment i held my phones, text messages have flooded in already. But I wasn't really cheerful to find out that my phones are full of new messages. How can everyone be so chummy chummy, greeting me a happy valentine's day?! ...Yeah yeah whatev!
Valentine's day are for couples/people who are attached/taken. Not for singles. Yeah we can celebrate the love of our parents and other loved ones, but that is not what Valentine's is really all about right? Imagine how single people endure this 24 hours of celebrating love - alone. Seeing couples so mushy together start to tick me off, i just dunno why. I have this urge of telling them that it'll all be over soon..haha. i'm so bad.
Well hello, everybody has a right to love and be loved too ya know. And i'm being deprived of it right now, and that's why i sound like i hate the whole world.=p Why do bad things keep happening to good people? I also need to feel loved by someone. Experience intimacy, feel the romance. I've been waiting for so long, and no decent guy has come along. All those guys that come my way are like, sorta assholes. hehe. I'm starting to think I'm high maintenance. But nah, not really. If i don't set standards, then what does that make me? See.
Well I think I should stop ranting. Valentine's is over. But I won't deny, whether it be Valentine's or not, I'm still waiting for my guy to come. Valentine's day have just put more pressure into it.

Whatev. (",)

On the lighter side....
Went out today with Karlie. Just gotta have my chillout and Hed Kandi cds back. I missed 'em! We went to school, 'cause she had to have some papers done, certification and stuff. She just got accepted at Manila Hotel, banquet sales...So happy for her, finally one of us already has a job. Ate at Chicken chicken....dang, missed their food so much! Oh how i miss the college days tooh.(",)
Got home pretty early..surfed the net and stuff...Then I got this call that I wasn't expecting at all. Club Panoly called me up again!!! I have an interview with them tomorrow morning...hoping for the best. Then I'll have another interview for Palms Country Club in Alabang on Thursday. All the luck.

Well this is it. It's all up to me to decide for my life. Alabang, or Boracay?! Still thinking of the pros and cons...But I have to decide as soon as possible... Maybe getting a job will make me forget about being single and loveless...or i might meet someone once i get a job. hahaha.

Isn't the picture i chose cute? Just suits my topic for the day. The heart is for the Valentine shit, and the signage that says Open is like an open window...an opportunity for me on having my first job. Cool huh?

Bringin down the house, and regrets?......

hey hey hey....

It was Tito Hermie's bday party last night, held at tito mert's posh home...:smile: Yesterday was the only time i got to see him since he came back last week..heheh...The party has yummy food! I loved the paella...but i wasnt really able to pig out...dunno why..haha. There were fewer people than expected...Not the party a teenager would want to go to...They're all like grown ups... I was too dressy for the party..haha. Shoulda worn flip flops instead of my pumps...haha. But it was fun though, being with all my relatives and stuff...
My uncle is big time! haha... He had his fraternity brothas come to the party...One's a former senator...cool. and most of them are big time lawyers too...Cool eh? Maybe they can help me get a damn occupation. haha.
Boo...no booze for me?! Haha... Tito Mert just asked the food attendant to serve me red wine. He told me i would barf the next day if i had tequila...haha. Yeah it happened already last new year's eve! Whatev. (",) Well i had fun with the videoke machine at the party though..haha.

Reflections on my freakin life...
Got to talk to Tito Mert at the party last night...he was saying that i shoulda taken the job offer at Boracay...I said i wouldnt be compensated rightly...it's below minimum wage because it was in a provincial rate... But he said that once i get to work in Boracay, the location itself is already a compensation. Exposure is one more thing. He's goddam right. wtf, he makes me regret the decision i made. Shit. Club Panoly (Boracay) called me up again last week asking me again if I want to take a job in their Manila office, or if I really want to work in Boracay, their doors are still open. It took me like a week to finally decide that I am willing to have another interview with them. I replied to the email after a week, and yeah, i still haven't gotten any response. This is just bullshit man. I just hope they would call me again...*crossing fingers*
On my other possible working opportunity...
I'm coming back to Alabang on the 17th...I'll have an interview for Palms country club....Whew. Damn nervous. If i get in, well then this is it. I should take this job even if it means moving away from home. Yeah. Tito Mert said this tooh. That eventually we will all move outta the house and live far away from our folks...i didn't realize that until now. I just love my folks too much.

Maybe one more thing that bothers me is that, if I have to live in a dorm/apartment, there's a big chance of me sharing it with some other people. Just the thought of sharing bathroom with someone else - eew. No... I am such a neat freak, obssessive compulsive, call it whatever you want. And the luxury of having a maid here at home...that's all gunna change once i move...i also won't have cable tv, entertainment system, and most of all BrOaDbAnD baby! And all my dough might go to the apartment rental! Waah! I guess this is what's holding me back from working far from home. This is such a drag. Am I a prima donna??? Damn. hehe. Gotta talk to mom again.

Reality check...Time is always now, as what i always say. If i won't work now, when will i? My career plan is not yet progressing. Wake up patty. Help help. Oh yeah. This is my life. It's me who should decide....Damn confused.

Road to nowhere....and mini porn whatever thingy scandals...

Okay, as I said in my previous blog, mum and I were supposed to check out Palms Country Club. And yeah we did. Man, Alabang is one long trip from our home. Anyhoo....yeah we saw the place, and it looks freakin' neat. Yeah, I want to work there...And yeah I got a big chance of getting accepted. But the problem is that, it's fucken wayyy tooo long from home. And I gotta get a place near the country club...and there isn't any place to stay near the vicinity...So the main problem is the place where I got to stay... waah! So confused right now. Can't...breathe. Arrgh. I have to decide as soon as possible. Time is always NOW.
Next topic please.

I think celebrity sex videos on MMS are becoming a fad now...hahaha. One by one, FILO celebrities get to be "victims" of this mms video scandal thingy. They all deny to death that they are not the ones on the video. Duh. Their faces and voices are so recognized in those shitty mini porn whatever thingy...haha. If you're gunna ask me if i've seen one, well the answer is, yes. haha. I bet everyone out there has a perverted friend. HaHa. Yeah, there was this time in college where our friend Ced (sorry for spilling out your name ced..haha)showed us this video clip on his cellphone. The first video clip i saw was Aubrey Miles. I forgot what it was all about...hehe. Then the second time, i got to see a video clip of Diana Zubiri. Now in that video clip, she was totally caught unawares (yeah that's unawares. it's a correct grammar, bastard trust me). She was in a photoshoot thingy. Yeech. Don't want to elaborate anymore..haha.
These FILO celebs should look up to Paris Hilton. She's so famous because of her sex videos. And she isn't denying anything about it. Go with the flow dude. haha. Just an opinion fellas. I just noticed this thing. I swear it's becoming a fad among celebrities now. I wonder who's the next victim. Harhar.

I am sooo right! Brini Maxwell is a freakin' MALE!
http://kellyanncollins.com/2004/05/ironic-domesticity-queen-takes-drag.htm
My instincts are freakin' right...haha. I've been curious the whole time, I even got to tell kuya about it, and he got freakin' curious too...he actually found the answer to this..haha.

Shit, seriously...I gotta decide soon on what I want to happen in my life. I keep on complaining that I don't have a job. And yet I got 2 job offers (Club Panoly and Palms Country Club) but still can't decide what to choose and what to do. Why do I get job opportunities in freakin' far places anyway?! Whoaaa!
TIME IS ALWAYS NOW!


...hey, how can a dream feel so real?=p

Definitely NOT heaven! (",)

Haha. Whatev. Saturday night and I'm stuck at home...lol...The whole week I did nothing but surf the net...DSL baby...lol...
Club Panoly called me up - again [remember the Boracay offer...(posted at Xanga)] They said I'm qualified for their vacant position, which is Corporate Account Executive. Sounds decent, eh? It's a pretty tough job though. Gotta think about it first...Me and mom are gunna go to Alabang tomorrow to check out the my other possible working area...If we get to find a place where i can stay, then I'll take the next step...then I'm gonna have a job finally...and gonna move out of the family's home...But I'm still uncertain of what's gunna happen tomorrow...All the luck! (",) I am so sick of staying and bumming around the house, so I gotta work and do sumthin'! I can't be a pirate forever ya know...hahah.

Took picshures of me yesterday...Had fun editing 'em at photoshop...(",) That's how bored I was and still am baby! Un-bored meeh! (",)