Pain, and my love for shoes (An analogy) =)

No, not in Bora.
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As I posted on my last blog, I said that I was able to get a great deal with this pair of killer boots...I just love 'em. And I was able to make an analogy out of this freakin' pair of shoes.=) Bare with me if I won't make sense to you. haha.

The first time I wore it for work, I felt like crying 'cause it was hella painful. But you gotta understand, it's called "breaking in". Right? haha.

I swore to myself that I won't wear it the next day because it's just way tooh painful for my cute feet (hehe)... But I changed my mind thinkin', how will my feet get used to the shoes if I won't wear it again? Right? So I wore it the next day.

Pain. Dammit. Pain. I tried to endure it again. My brother would always tell me how stupid I am to choose fashion over comfort. Ohwell. The shoes look really hot. hehehe. The second day was a painful day for my feet, but I was able to endure it.

And today, I decided to wear the freakin' boots, still. How pasaway can i get. wahaha.

And surprisingly enough, I didn't feel as much pain compared to the previous days. I felt pain, and then it'll go. Come and go. It was like that today. But it was a lot more bearable than the previous days.

SoOoO...I think what my feet felt during these previous days, is how i deal with...life? love? pain? shit? Hahaha.

Sometimes (or most of the time? dunno.), I still go for things that I know would do me no good. I'd still go for stuff that i know would give me pain. Maybe it's because I always think that maybe things would work out, or sumthin' good would eventually happen, or I'm just stupid and weird and crazy, or whatever.

So I guess this is how I normally react when I get into situations like this. I try to bear the pain, though sometimes I feel like giving up. But then, I get to force myself to hold on, and endure the pain. Until I get to feel the numbness. Until I can say the words "bring it all on!".

Hey, bring it all on.

But then, if you tell me I'm strong...it doesn't actually mean I don't feel no pain. I do. Lotsa. It's just a matter of how one deals with it. Ohwell. I dunno what I'm getting into right now.

Dunno what to say anymore...Bitin noh? Hehehe. Suddenly got distracted. Panira! hehe.

Stupid me. wahaha.

Pucha, did i make any friggin' sense here?=D

But anyway, I wonder IF I'll wear my boots tomorrow. What do you think?=)

MoViNg On.....!

'smile'
Originally uploaded by Dan Stringle.

Yeah...Happy. LoL.

Went major shopping yesterday at Robinson's Place...Major Sale! Got a freakin' pair of killer boots for P499. I can't believe it myself. The shoes looks like it was bought for P3k. Hahahah.

Went shopping to death, though I still wanted to buy more...wahaha=)

But I'm happy. =)

Quite pissed off because my friends and I were supposed to go out yesterday. I dunno what happened. Dammit. Edroy can't drink anymore. Can't believe it. Hehe... Too bad Edroy. You're gunna have to watch us drink everytime we get to have our gimik nights...hehehe.

...I was able to have a good talk with a friend the other day. That made me happy. It's been a while since we last talked. Saw another side of this person, I never thought I'd see. But still, he is what he really is.=p

My highschool friend gave my number to her guy friend. He started texting yesterday. I thought it was just fine. But I got freakin' annoyed when he kept on miscalling me. Dude, that's what I hate the most. As in. I bullied my guy officemate for doin' that miscalling shit. Now he learned his lesson. So please stop miscalling me for crying out loud, will ya? Don't you have money to really call? Wahaha.

Still I'm happy. He asked for my number because he finds me cute. Wahaha. Confidence booster. Good one. Hehehe.

I'm still very much hooked up on House Music...and i dunno how long i will be hooked. It helps me alot. Lifts me up through my shitty moments. I can't believe it myself - that freakin' music can elevate one's mood. I love it.
I'm lovin' Moony right now...Thanks Marc for suggesting that "flying away" single of Moony...Now I'm listening to "Point of View" for the Nth time! Not getting tired of it! hahaha... And that "Dove/I'll be loving you" track tooh! Love it.=)

...But still...yeah, I'm still thinking of him. Miss him terribly. Wondering how he is. Fock shit. Such an asshole.

Now I'm confused. I don't know if this "happy feeling/happy moments" is real, or if I'm just forcing myself to cheer up.

What do you think?

Haay.

LaChRyMoSe.

Originally uploaded by cymagen.org photographs.

Will somebody freakin' cheer me up? I've been like this for days already.

Good thing I got gay officemates. Yeah, 2 of them are not just HaPpY, they're homos tooh. They make me laugh at times. And this one homo's got a lovah boi. Imagine that. I got defeated by a faggot. And I got a free love advice from him tooh. But dang, he didn't have any idea what situation I was in.

But still...

I'm drowning in MeLaNcHoLy.

Just take this terrible feeling off my chest (no, i don't think it's the cough that's giving me a hard time breathing)...

Solitariness.

Is this one thing i should get used to? Actually, I think I am starting to... But i dunno...

What a drama queen. I better stop this.

There's no use of making myself get affected with the situation. Things were too early to tell anyway. Edroy was right. And I was stupid to think there was something in there. I thought I was in for something much better than the previous one.

Hey, not my fault. He's good. He's the complete package. Or so I thought. I didn't notice this friggin' flaw of his. Argh.

Whatever.

O Joes, you got what you ask for. A new post. What the hell can you say now. Argh again.

Somebody kill me. =p